Fear: I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.

Today was another great day. I helped my brother move again and then we all went to a Diner. After that we hung out at his new pad. It was alot of fun...kinda ackward cause everyone thier was like 25 years old and at completley diffrent stages in their life, i still identified and for some reason they talked about highschool alot. I guess thats what you do when your 25, wish you were back in highschool. And when your in highschool you wish you were back in middle school or elementry school cause lets face it recess was the shit. Anyway i'm going back to the photography studio again and this time they said i'd come when its alot busier and she said she'd make sure its a day when their are alot of female models . I'm also trying to get a helecopter ride with a radio station of something for my photography assignment, i'm gonna call tommorow and i'll let you guys know, wish me luck. Its really just i want to ride in a helicopter but photography is my key their.... I'm also considering to pick up writing and deleating all my devations and if i like a couple i deleated i'll put them back up. Hope everyone else is having a good time.